FebrUary
with a capital F U
Today I celebrate February for allowing me to grow my arms 10 feet long with my middle Fingers Up. This month I’ve had a Few realizations about my life that I wanted to share and Ultimately Flip the bird.
“First off Fuck yo bitch and the clique you claim” - Tupac Shakur
I been holding on to a couple relationships that I’m ready to Finally let go. You aren’t a good Friend, you’re all take & no give, you don’t care to communicate, and I’ll leave all your shit where it lay. I’ve always been the last in the room to care because I give my genuine energy never expecting the other person to match. FUCK THAT, you and your nonchalant attitude gotta go! My circle just got two spots smaller.
“It was dark clouds on Us but that was perfect For Us, we know you always crash & burn but it was working For Us” - Nipsey Hussle
So while I closed a window a Few doors opened. A move, a newfound independence, a spiritual journey, and a refocused dream...so much to experience in three months! This would Feel impossible to survive if I was going at it alone, but I’m not. My amazing cousin Talisha is going through a very similar life transition and the way we relate to one another is one in a million. We count on each other For support & strength, she’s my hype woman and I am hers. We spend countless hours talking about plans, goals and experiences…we help each other say Fuck you to Fears & Failures & I wouldn’t give it Up For anything. I love you Talisha! PERIOD
“I be Feeling like Prince in '84, Mike in '79, Biggie in '97, '94 Nas” - Jay-Z
Oh this is what confidence Feels like? I’ve never held my head Up this high in my entire life & it ain’t dropping! When you have so much love, support & prayers building you Up, you will never come down. I’ve always cared For what another person Felt about me, I’m reclaiming the power to say IDGAF! I have literally been living under a rock and now that I’ve climbed out the light is beaming on me.
“I want the credit if I'm losing or I'm winning, on my momma that's the realest shit” - Kendrick Lamar
I always cringe when people ask what I wanna do/be in life because I just want to say successful. Now successful in what..honestly I’m still trying to Figure that out, & that’s OKAY…Fuck having a plan! I Used to Feel lost and scrambled, Feeling like I don’t have a direct path in life. But I have multiple goals and interests and talents and hobbies, I owe it to myself to explore them all. And at the end of the day, I want the history of me to read just like that: she did it all.
To help me thank February and all the clarity it has brought me I’ve highlighted 4 black men in rap history, 2 Up and 2 down...so join me in raising two Up for those who ain’t down.
Happy Black History Month!
Love Nita