FebrUary

with a capital F U

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Today I celebrate February for allowing me to grow my arms 10 feet long with my middle Fingers Up. This month I’ve had a Few realizations about my life that I wanted to share and Ultimately Flip the bird.

“First off Fuck yo bitch and the clique you claim” - Tupac Shakur

I been holding on to a couple relationships that I’m ready to Finally let go. You aren’t a good Friend, you’re all take & no give, you don’t care to communicate, and I’ll leave all your shit where it lay. I’ve always been the last in the room to care because I give my genuine energy never expecting the other person to match. FUCK THAT, you and your nonchalant attitude gotta go! My circle just got two spots smaller.

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“It was dark clouds on Us but that was perfect For Us, we know you always crash & burn but it was working For Us” - Nipsey Hussle

So while I closed a window a Few doors opened. A move, a newfound independence, a spiritual journey, and a refocused dream...so much to experience in three months! This would Feel impossible to survive if I was going at it alone, but I’m not. My amazing cousin Talisha is going through a very similar life transition and the way we relate to one another is one in a million. We count on each other For support & strength, she’s my hype woman and I am hers. We spend countless hours talking about plans, goals and experiences…we help each other say Fuck you to Fears & Failures & I wouldn’t give it Up For anything. I love you Talisha! PERIOD

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“I be Feeling like Prince in '84, Mike in '79, Biggie in '97, '94 Nas” - Jay-Z

Oh this is what confidence Feels like? I’ve never held my head Up this high in my entire life & it ain’t dropping! When you have so much love, support & prayers building you Up, you will never come down. I’ve always cared For what another person Felt about me, I’m reclaiming the power to say IDGAF! I have literally been living under a rock and now that I’ve climbed out the light is beaming on me.

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“I want the credit if I'm losing or I'm winning, on my momma that's the realest shit” - Kendrick Lamar

I always cringe when people ask what I wanna do/be in life because I just want to say successful. Now successful in what..honestly I’m still trying to Figure that out, & that’s OKAY…Fuck having a plan! I Used to Feel lost and scrambled, Feeling like I don’t have a direct path in life. But I have multiple goals and interests and talents and hobbies, I owe it to myself to explore them all. And at the end of the day, I want the history of me to read just like that: she did it all.

To help me thank February and all the clarity it has brought me I’ve highlighted 4 black men in rap history, 2 Up and 2 down...so join me in raising two Up for those who ain’t down.

Happy Black History Month!

Love Nita

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