I Know Him

Forgiving the man I never wanted to forgive.

I know he didn’t get how great I was gonna be, he didn’t understand how amazing it would’ve been.

I know he didn’t know I was gonna love him with my whole heart because he did the right thing, because he didn’t leave me...but he did.

I know he doesn’t know I think about our ice cream date all the time, how I never wanted it to end.

I know he doesn’t know that “you can call me anytime” shouldn’t be coming from him, I know he’s just avoiding guilt.

I know he won’t reach out because I won’t.

I know he has a family he loves now.

I know he would be proud of me.

I know I’m one of the best things that happened in his life, even though he doesn’t exist in mine.

I know he missed out and will continue to miss out.

I know he knows I’ve moved on, I’ve replaced him.

I know he knows I still pray for him, and it’s hard.

Dad, I know you know you hurt me, I forgive you.

And I’ll be fine, Mom did amazing.

Love Nita